Open Diary - mybabyshawn

Open Diary - mybabyshawn http://www.opendiary.com/entrylist.asp?authorcode=D803023 A Mothers Diary My Baby Shawn http://www.opendiary.com/entryview.asp?authorcode=D803023&entry=10010 http://www.opendiary.com/entryview.asp?authorcode=D803023&entry=10010 you are my angel, wings and halo cleverly hidden by god love and laughter explode from your heart more genuinely then anyone can ever imagine its alright that you cant help it, or that you cant even hide it your not supposed to when I look into your beautiful baby boy eyes, sometimes I see confusion, frustration, happiness, and boredom but the one thing that I always see is the love that comes deeply from the heart, pure 100% baby love. sometimes while your sleeping, I cant help but gaze at your tiny little body and wonder what you are dreaming of. your smile is the most beautiful thing I've ever seen and the way you play, no matter how clumsy your little hands are, I've never been more entertained in my life. as I held you on the day of your birth, happiness eroded from my soul, I had never felt that way before. now I get that feeling every day, you are the joy in my life, you are my angel, wings and halo cleverly hidden by god you are MY BABY SHAWN &nbsp; &nbsp; this is for my little boy I know its not good at all, but its a rough draft, so there will be changes made, let me know what you think about it, give me some constructive criticism, sincerely, loving him more and more each day &nbsp; Thu, 27 Aug 2009 00:00:00 GMT Angel http://www.opendiary.com/entryview.asp?authorcode=D803023&entry=10009 http://www.opendiary.com/entryview.asp?authorcode=D803023&entry=10009 Do you like it in heaven where your free to live in peace are you watching over me guiding me protecting me i hope so i cant wait to see you in my dreams because i know youll find your way there when we lost you i replayed all the good times and you tought me to make every moment worth while and to make many good memories with all my loved ones we all miss you and will forever remember you. &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; my aunt died&nbsp; a few years ago and the last time i saw her alive i was running away, and even though i ran to her house we werent very nice to each other and the last thing i said was mean for a while i felt so shitty because i didnt have good words with her last but i know she knew i loved her and she loved me, i miss you sabrina, you are the best and i love you sincerly missing her every day &nbsp; Thu, 27 Aug 2009 00:00:00 GMT Unbeliveable http://www.opendiary.com/entryview.asp?authorcode=D803023&entry=10008 http://www.opendiary.com/entryview.asp?authorcode=D803023&entry=10008 Your love is unbelievable I still cant seem to find the reason that you thought that I would be so kind your love is unconditional I knew it from the start that you would love me forever and wouldn't break my heart &nbsp; I love the way you hold me the way you say my name and especially the thing you say to take away my pain its completely unbelievable how you treat me dear and it remains the same day after day &nbsp; ill never understand just how you became mine you love me so deeply and I lose my self control and even though your real this is still so unbelievable Thu, 27 Aug 2009 00:00:00 GMT what am i supposed to do? http://www.opendiary.com/entryview.asp?authorcode=D803023&entry=10007 http://www.opendiary.com/entryview.asp?authorcode=D803023&entry=10007 so heres tha deal, i have this friend that ive known since i was 16 and i think she was almost 15,&nbsp; well me and aaron went to live with them when shawn was a month old because we couldnt live with my mother anymore cause she was an alcoholic. well she has a baby too, named austin and a boyfriend named brad. well she told me one day that she couldnt stand him and when she found out she was prego the first 3 months she cryed because she had to stay with him for the baby.&nbsp; we recently moved out of their home because of their land lord, but the thing is aaron and brad have been working for brads &quot;friend&quot; and it was cool at first they were both getting paid 50 dollers a day to do land scaping, well its fucked up that the guy there working for makes like a thousand something a day and only lets go of 100 when its HIS own business, well recently aarons been going to work switching off days with brad, and getting paid alright i guess, but me and aaron were suspecting that brad was trying to fuck us over because he would call at like 1 in the morning while every one was sleeping and asks aaron if he wants to work at 6:30 the next day, but we let it go because we didnt know when the boss man called brad, the next day boss man said he told brad to tell aaron that at like 12:30 lunch time tha day befor, still we held our tounge, but tues. aaron worked and boss man said that he would need both of them to work on thurs. which is today, last night brad calls at 11:00 last night and tells aaron that boss man doesnt need either of them to work. well we had a feeling brad was lying so aaron called the boss, he said that he only needed one person to work, he didnt care who!&nbsp; heres tha kicker, brad doesnt have a car to get to work, aaron can get his dad to take him to work, so brad told aaron not to show up, well i called my friend and she said he had no way to get there.&nbsp; because brads mom had to take her to work and if brad was going to work today he would have to ride with her, i know my gurl wouldnt lie to me to protect some one she despised. but she was right, boss man called aaron this morning saying brad didnt show, well an hour and a half later, brad calls and tells aaron to come work cause he doesnt want to do all the work but boss cant pay both of them to work so brad had to pay aaron out the pocket, and he was only going to pay aaron 20 dollers,&nbsp; my point is, brad is fucking us over being grimy, and brad and boss man have been friends for ten years, brads been telling the boss to say shit, and fuck us even more, and boss mans been doing it, we have no car no jobs no money, this is all we have, how do i handle this without making aaron loose his only job and making it so my baby has what he needs? P.L.E.A.S.E H.E.L.P M.E I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO!!!!!!! sincerly, very pissed and very confused Thu, 27 Aug 2009 00:00:00 GMT Family time, woo hoo! http://www.opendiary.com/entryview.asp?authorcode=D803023&entry=10006 http://www.opendiary.com/entryview.asp?authorcode=D803023&entry=10006 NOT!!! were going to aarons familys house to have lunch, but the not part about it is no one there really gives a fuck about me or aaron or shawn,&nbsp; but of course they will never admit to it. were onlyh going because aarons cusin the one who isnt white trash asked us to come so she could see shawn, so yea were going. Anyways, my life is driving me crazy i cant stand the people i live with i cant stand the people around me, and my sister, my only actual friend, is at colledge. &nbsp; Have you ever noticed that the more time you spend with someone the more they seem grimmy?&nbsp; i dont know why people are like that, no matter how much you help some one out the more they want and the less you get, if you feel me, let me know your oppinions on that one. &nbsp; life gets kinda boaring when all you do is watch tv and listen to people bitch everyday, but the good thing about the situation is i got my baby. shawn is the most adorable little angel ever! and he is a mamas boy too, hes not even four months yet&nbsp; and he has already said mama and dada and HI. hes learning so fast, i guess its cause i dont really do anything all day but play with him and talk to him. so i guess he would be learning fast. well i guess im going to get ready for another annoying day with aarons family:( signed ugggggggg!!!! 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