I am a 25 yr old from the Northeast. I am pretty much a fave's only diary. I have gone through hell and back in my life. And I am truly thankful for having experienced what I have been through....for I am a completely different person today for doing so. I am a much happier person. I don't rely on anyone else to make me happy. I have a much more positive outlook on life these days. If you read my diary through you would definately be able to see the changes I have made.

I have the most amazing boyfriend in the world. He came into my life completely and totally unexpectedly. I had just gotten out of a 4.5 year long abusive relationship and was determined not to get into a serious relationship. I was determined to live up life as a single woman and I enjoyed every (short) minute of it.

One night a friend and I went to a bar and I ended up meeting this man. A man I didn't think I would ever see or hear from again. Well as soon as he got the chance he called me. And at first I was just like eh, whatever, we can be friends. But then I started to realize how much of a great guy he is. He waited for about a month after us just talking and hanging out before asking me to be his girlfriend. Of course I said yes. I would have been stupid not to. He makes me want to better myself. He makes me smile and laugh when no one else can. He treats me the way I DESERVE to be treated. The reason I am telling you all of this is because of what I said earlier.....if I hadn't been *blessed* to have gone through all of that bad stuff in my life I never would have been able to truly appreciate being with someone who knows how to treat a woman.

I have come to realize when you are least expecting something ..... something good will come your way.

Never expect someone else to *make* you happy. You need to find what makes you happy and stick to it no matter what. And being as optismistic as possible helps a lot too.

I went through yrs and yrs of suffering from deep depression and don't get me wrong I wasn't suddenly *cured* over night I still deal with it but I have learned to recognize that I am in a depressed mood and accept that I am and know and remind myself this will pass.

I truly wish I could explain how to achieve the happiness I have found for myself so that other's who suffer could also feel this happiness that I never thought I could ever feel. Some may say being Bipolar I am just in a manic phase but no...I am not. I can tell the difference. People who have known me even only a yr but have seen me through my last relationship and my move back home and everything I have been through these last couple months have noticed changes in me. All good changes. (Of course).

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