I've decided to restart my old diary, which I had on here for about four years (1999-2003). I had to get a new account, but my old user name was still available so here I am again. I guess this was really the only place I ever felt comfortable writing. I've tried using different names and different diary sites, but I guess I like this one best. Hopefully the annoying people who bothered me before have moved on with their lives and I can write in peace again.

Just a warning: I am a Pagan. I do not like being lectured or berated by the religious right about my beliefs, so please leave my diary if that is your intent. I have no problem discussing or debating religion (or any other topic for that matter), but I will not tolerate being insulted or harassed.

I will sometimes post song lyrics if I feel they reflect my mood better then a written entry could. I will also post the occasional quote, trivia, joke or other odd bits of useless and irrelevant information.

Cast O' Characters

BellaMorte: <---That's me. I live in Western Massachusetts. I work at a day habilitation program for adults with developmental disabilities. I have been dealing with severe depression, obsessive/compulsive disorder, anxiety and panic disorder for most of my life. For fun I like drawing, writing, learning new things, any kind of arts and crafts, movies that make me think, horror movies, playing my bass, reading, and I'm a total freak for tattoos and body piercing.

Chris: My man. He's 42 years old. We've been together for 10 years. He's a truck driver, driving one of those big 18 wheelers. He likes playing guitar, singing, martial arts, video games, cooking, and anything that has to do with building, racing or showing cars. He also shares my love of tattoos.

Kaila: My oldest daughter. She's 21. She lives in Tyler, TX with her fiance, Husband, and her two childern.

Darcee: My second daughter. She's 18. She has issues. Lets not go there.

Timothy: My oldest son. Hes 17. He also has issues. Lets not go there either.

(Kaila, Darcee and Tim are from my first ex.)

Autumn: My youngest daughter. Shes 14 years old. She may have to have her cell phone surgically removed.

(Autumn is from my second ex.)

Damien: He's 9, my youngest son.

(Damien is my boyfriend's son)

Ivy: Kaila's daughter and my grand daughter. She is 2 years old.

Aiden: Kaila's son and my grand son. He is 1 year old.

Noah/Gennavieve: Darcee's unborn child and my third grandchild.

Emmett/Alanna: Kaila's unborn child and my fourth grandchild.

Jack-Jack: My dog, a beagle/husky mix. I am convinced he is one of the stuidest animals that ever lived. But I love him dearly and wouldn't change a thing about him

Piggy: My black and white guinea pig. His real name is Oreo, but all we have ever called him is Piggy. Hes very squeaky, especially when it gets close to six o'clock, which is when he gets his fresh veggies every night. How he knows what time it is, I have no idea. I didn't even think he could see the clock from his cage.

Beau: My cat. I think he has some sort of litter box phobia, cuz no matter how clean I keep it, he insists on using the floor.

Well that about wraps up the central figures in my life. There are other people that I'll probly mention on occasion, but I'll explain them as they come up.