I've had this diary for a long time, relatively speaking. It's a source of therapy for me.
So that people understand my entries a little better... this is me.
I'm a poet/actor/sometimes singer/songwriter/hopefully soon a comic book writer/passable musician on guitar, harmonica, keyboards and percussion/returning to college student in the fall.
I am also an adult survivor of childhood sexual abuse who deals every day with delay onset Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. This causes me to have an overwhelming fear of abandonment and to be occasionally borderline paranoid.
I have days when I can't get out of bed. I have days when everything's perfectly normal.
I've never had luck with relationships. Just about any way for a relationship to end badly, it's happened to me or I've done it myself.
I'm profound and profane. I'm impulsive and thoughtful. I'm confident and shy. I'm highly intelligent and do really stupid things. I'm a teacher and a student. I'm a sinner and a saint.
I'm the most contradictory person you'll ever meet.
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