Im tired of UNKNOWN STUPID PPL THAT TLK CRAP BUT CANT LEAVE A NAME OR SOMETHING!!!!!

My life is a rollercoaster one min. its GREAT the nxt it drops down and i used to wish i were dead and i have those feelings alittle now.My life goes on and on but my past wont leave me alone. Somedays are jus not my days and some days i feel like the most important person.
im nice but plz dnt push my buttons. I can blow up!

I beleive in the lord... Even tho i dnt pray and all that. i should but it doesnt mean hes not a big part of my life.... I love him... Its also hard to get me really madd but it is possible
ppl use me and take advantage evryday but im used to it so i dnt care.
Life goes on, Sux i kno but cant do anything abt it unless you take ur life like tht 9yr. old girl that attempted then died 4 days after in the hopital. Sad i kno...

Dnt mess with my fam. and dnt tlk bout them cuz thats one wayy to get me madd. ecspecially the dead ones cuz its pretty sad when you do cuz they cant tlk back to u. So it means ur to scared to tlk crap abt the ones thT can defend themselves.I cut occasionally, i started cuz james . My life is filled with drama and a little joy when im actually happy. Im tired of trying to be perfect and have the perfect life b-cuz u kno noones life is perfect.

I used to be suicidal I attempted 2times and wrote a suicide not once. I overdosed on tripple C's but its not a big deal. I went to the hospital cuz i told my ma cuz i was scared i was goin to die and i obviously didnt want to. That wasnt one of the suicide attepts either. I used to need help but i keep pushing away the help that comes along, like my ma has been trying to help me by taking me to dif. places but i tell her i dnt need help. I used to not wnt help but i kinda do. I dnt like tlking to adults i dnt kno but i will tlk to teens, maybe cuz they are goin through it too. At the exact moment but i dnt kno.

I will ramble on about alot of different stuff too and try to keep my diary updated!! But there is no promising on that!

I love the outdoors,and nature!! Anything else you want to kno just ask!!

HERE ARE THE THINGS YOU MIGHT NEEDA KNOW ABOUT MY LIFE TO UNDERSTAND IT
* I cut
* Im too nice (i let ppl walk all over me all the time)
* I give good advice
* This is the wayy i can tlk abt my probs so dnt hate

YOU MIGHT NEEDA KNOW THESE NAMES && ALITTLE BIT ABT THEM
James: ex. hes the cheater and he doesnt kno how to respcet the ppl tht respect him..
umm.. hes a pothead now.. and he has no job, hes been kicked outta the army, and yeaa
enough on him for now

Cameron: best friend. Hes gayy but im alwayz around him... Hes the guyy if you want to smile, go to him.. i cnt stop smiling when im with him.. he has the most gorgeous smile also.. Hes a totally a lovable person :) He like that person everyone dreams abt.. Hes the guy u go to if ur havin a badd dayy...

Danielle: Friend. She likes guys she cnt get (gays) or older guyyss, she lost her virginity to a 32 or 34 yr old when she was only 13.. she fantasizes abt teachers and shes obsessed with this gayy kid ruben and pete wentz...

Ashley (my friend)- She tell her boy everything, but give good advie and knows what shes tlkin abt... she knows what to do in like every stituation :)

Thats it for now....