More than 50 years alive I still feel something is wrong. I decided to go into regression therapy , a kind of psychotherapy . By that I mean experience events and feelings or emotion from early childhood, not past lifes. My diary is my way to analyse my life, my mind, my feelings, my relation and to write about new vision that I hope I will develop thanks to therapy.  Writing is also a kind of therapy now. I also will write about the regression sessions ( december 2006) 

Because of all the terrible things that happened in my family
( incest , abuse , rape , suicide , divorce , psychosis , automutilation , anorexia , bipolar syndrom , depression , narcissism , cancer , ADHD , borderline , Chronic Fatigue Syndrom, brain haemorrhage,  Manic Depressive syndrom , bodily harm )
 I decided to keep this diary completely anonymous. I'm sorry for that.

The Change