Welcome to my diary. Nothing fancy, just my thoughts and fears of my every day life.

get to know him
Name: Paul
Age: 24
Location: Derby, England, UK
Marital Status: Single
Job Status: Employed
Interests: Music, Music Production, DJ'ing, Internet, Sport, People, Socialising
Drinks: Yep
Smokes: Nope

reason he's here
I just read your letter,
It says that you'll be gone for awhile.
Don't you think it was getting better,
I guess I'm just a fool strung-out,
I'm looking out a window,
Into a world that's taking you from me,
And I'm feeling so disgusted,
How pathetic can I possibly be?
What to do?
Life is through.
Just wanna kill, myself for you

pro's and con's
I suffer from anxiety
I have an eating disorder
I medicate on mirtazapine (sometimes)
I have a huge desire for love
I appreciate my friends
I am generally happy
I have felt hurt
I am always hopeful

the relationships in case they get mentioned
Mum: Known as Mum
Dad: Known as Dad
Siblings: None
Best friends: Madi, Nicola, Tom, Dave
Other friends: Adam, Paul, Martin
Ex girlfriend (and still a best friend): Madi
Previous ex's in my life: Rachel, Sarah (no others worth talking about)
Diary friends: littlered

purpose of this diary
Not entirely sure, all I know is I have felt shit lately and I really need a place to be myself without getting shot down or judged. I don't want to hurt people, it's not in my nature. I don't want to be a burden or put pressure on other people, but I guess I don't want to be alone either.

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