thursday went to class. got out of gov early went to get doughnuts came back for english. read edipus or whatever really good. went to lunch with kim. then came home didnt do much. took a nap. got up and watched the oc. wasnt that bad next weeks is gonna be good. uhh took some tylonal pm to get to sleep. friday got up and went to class. which was cancled apperently so i came home. didnt do anything watched tv. took a nap. LONG nap i took tylonal again for my head ach known it would put me to sleep and it did. watched tv. and tuesdays gilmore girls. then uhh ya that was my friday. my grandpas birthday. i find it amusing his is the day before mine

saturday got up and showered and ready for erins shower. went up there lots of old ladys. uhh felt weird.... magen showed up. grrr. so then they opened presents talked with her family i love her moms sisters lol. then came home.... my birthday has fucken sucked. megan was all "so yall are comin back after this" and erin was just "oh ya" and i give a look and just BLEH that just pissed me the fuck off. so im home. my parents want to go to wichita i dont wana leave the house erin wants to take me bowling and get me drunk.... did i mention megan and brad will be with her. and if it works out like i think it is jimmy will show up and so there i am once again 5th whell on my fucken birthday. my parents asked me what i wanted to do an i almost started to cry cuz i just didnt wana do anything and how people treat me. this is the secound fucken year people have totaly forgotten my brithday. its like "WOW THANX" i do all kinds of shit for you and for your brithday then when mine comes around its like "lets forget cuz hes not important" im tired of being walked all over just cuz im nice and dont know how to tell people no.

im done. im gonna go cry some.

seph