Someone *cough cough* suggested I should get off my ass and write in this thing. I even wrote in my latest entry that I would but I've just been putting it off I guess.

In any case... things have happened. Niki came to stay with me over christmas and new years. Unfortunately on her way here she managed to fall down some stairs so we spent the good part of the first day waiting in a hospital to have her ankle checked. Turns out she twisted it so she had to stay at home for a few days doing nothing but watch stuff on my computer and chat while I was at work. The weekend before Christmas eve we went to Malmö in Sweden and walked around taking pictures, staying in a nice hotel. In the evening I took her to a restaurant we'd passed by earlier that day and we had a lovely dinner after which we went back to the hotel. In the morning we had a huge breakfast.... geez... you cannot believe how much stuff they had. I was so full. Anyway... we checked out a little later and went back home.

Then Christmas eve happened.. we had dinner and exchanged gifts. I don't think it was quite as eventful as she expected, but that's cool. I know that our holidays are usually kinda quiet, it's probably kinda awkward to participate in someone elses Christmas.

On Thursday that week we went to the Zoo and to TIvoli, managed to buy Niki a few things which I think she liked. On Friday we went shopping for some various supplies.

On Saturday we went to a castle that Niki had not yet seen, she did see a lot of them on her last visit her but not this one. Now... we'd been talking about getting engaged, admittedly I was a bit unsure of the when and where. In any case I didn't have a ring for her yet (getting her one... getting to that later), but at one point we were all alone and she finally let me have the ring she was wearing and I proposed to her and she said yes! Can you believe that? I'm engaged to this beautiful, wonderful and amazing woman. I'm still kinda high about that. After having visited the castle we found a nice restaurant in town and had a lovely 3 course dinner there to celebrate. Then we went home, told my parents who congratulated us.

New Years Eve was boring... it usually is cos we don't really do much other than sit around and watch tv and then watch the fireworks. Once I'm living out on my own I think it'll be time for some other traditions, not that I mind the old ones.

I was working 3 days in the week that came up so again Niki had to stay home. On Saturday we went to Copenhagen again, went looking around, shopping and stuff. I usually hate being dragged around from shop to shop but I don't really mind when it's my fiancee doing it... hehe. We went to eat later, going to this mongolian bbq, only when we walked to the station we passed this interesting japanese restaurant, that we'll have to try next time.

The next day packing commenced only to realize that Niki's camera with all her pictures had gone missing, apparently someone either stole it the day before or she merely dropped it and someone took it. Either way... I was pissed off to say the least, cos I know how much that camera and all those pictures meant to her.

The next day I took Niki to the airport, we spent time sitting around filming each other and taking pictures, it was great... it was just hard to let her get on that plane. I have this thing with people I really care for... I don't really want them to go anywhere. I damn well nearly cried when we said goodbye and she went through security and I had to go home to an empty room. Meh... goodbyes suck.

The next day it was back to real life again... working and working, which I've done since then 5 days a week. I had two re-exams coming up which I studied for as well. I managed to fuck one of them up... again... and managed to pass the other. One down... one to go. Well fuck me... get me some goddamn nerves so I can finish this thing before I'm 50. Goddamnit... I'm so annoyed with myself that I couldn't just muster the damn nerve to finish it up.

Anyway... I decided that I needed to see Niki again, so last week I booked myself on a plane to Montreal. So I'm going there from the 2nd to 19th of March, where in between is Niki's birthday. And while I'm there we're gonna get her a proper engagement ring... something shiny... cos she deserves it.

At the moment I've also signed up for various apartments hoping I'll get some before too long. The situation at home is kinda screwy, my parents will be splitting up at some point. It's only a matter of when my mom finds an apartment. It's kinda fucked but it's life I guess. I'm not entirely happy about it... they've been together for 30+ years (married I mean) but it's their choice. Either way I just have to get out of here and live on my own and then get Niki here at some point. There are still a lot of things to figure out.

Another thing.. my writing... I haven't had an original thought for a long time, so I think it'll do me good to get away from here for a while, maybe it'll charge my batteries again so I can start writing some poetry again cos I like doing that but I just haven't been able to get anything down.... bleh... okay.. enough of the self pitying here. Y'all take care now and do check back :P

I LOVE YOU BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!