i look into the mirror at my reflection, and what i see is something different, someone i didn't see myself becoming.  a 22 year old who is working dead-end jobs to make ends meat, even that doesn't seem to be working, has a high school education, but no college education, well hardly i have one year done, and that was right after graduation, almost 4 years ago.  i wish i had stuck with college i could have a career and not worry about not ever having enough money. should of could of.  life has been interesting since i moved from missouri,  i am not the same girl in some ways. i've grown up in someways because i've had to.  my wedding was suppose to be in october of this year but we moved it to april 21, 2007.  so i have to wait a whole year.  i've been engaged since last october.  i will be 22 this month.  i feel like i am making scrafices for my life for his. he still has a year and a half of school left, hopefully he will graduated in june or july of next year. he and a friend have started a business  www.fellowpedia.com go to it!! i hope that starts to take off. i never thought life would be this hard.  sometimes i wonder if i should have stayed in missouri. i shall never know.