I ran into Adam the other day at Best Buy. school started. and i hate it. i talked to brandon. it was weird. since school on friday i have been feeling very not good. i don't even really know why. I'm having self-esteem issues. last night (and lots of times today) i had the bad feelings again. the weird, shivery ones that i used to get right before i would cut myself. well, they were the ones that kinda signaled for it. so i had a crying fit, because i am supposed to be better. i am supposed to be happy. i am not supposed to even think about hurting myself. so it has been bothering me all day. there is something else too, but i can't figure out what it is. i just really don't like feeling like this again, i'm trying to trick myself into feeling good again. cuz i know if i act like it long enough, then i will be happy.

I saw XXX last night. IT SUCKED! I was so disappointed. I waited all summer to see Vin Diesel's new movie, and it sucked. I wanted to walk out, but i couldn't, cuz he kept not having a shirt on. = p