And it all comes crashing down?

Or just "Crash?"

If I could be a crayon - it would be blue...no big suprise.  I bleed blue after all.  I am a bit blue or hey, a whole lot blue.  Even the weather here in usually sunny Utah is blue....going against it's sunny normal self and instead giving me snow and rain...in MAY....as much time as I have spent here, that is still hard to believe and even harder to grasp.

Anyways, Denver last weekend was incredible.  If you call staying up for three days in a row, working days and nights...and then driving with Adrianne and baby to Denver awesome.... :)  I had a general idea of what I wanted to do when I got there, so it was definately worth it.  It was fun traveling with a two year old...nevermind that this particular two year old is by far the most adorable and well behaved child I have ever seen.  It was amazing.  Changing diapers, putting him in and out of a car seat...holding his hand while walking down the street....making him giggle and laugh.  Even the little "looks" that come out of his mouth when he finds something stellar in his eyes that he just wants to make sure I notice. 

The rest of Denver....good.  ESPN zone and lots of game playing to dinner at Chili's...to a fantastic Piano Bar down by Coor's Field.  We closed that place down.  Cab rides (I am not used to these kind of cab rides) to falling asleep after a LONG LONG three days.  Stout drinks.  And finally, my first trip to Coor's Field to watch the Rockies beat the Braves and an unassisted triple play.  Fantastic. 

The drive back and subsequent days, a little less glamerous.  I have given up on men...lol.  Not that it is entirely their fault...but it seems to work as long as I am concerned.  Back to running...because running keeps you distracted.  It keeps your mind off of people who make lousy friends, the ups and downs of a job, and ultimately off the fact that all you want is something you can't have. 

I am definately a self punisher. I take away everything I want from myself.  It seems to work well for me.  We have a new employee....he just started here a few weeks ago...and during a smoking break outside one day, he was asking one of the guys why they hadn't married me off yet.  I rolled my eyes and said that it just definately wasn't for me.  He looked at me and said he had a theory.  I paid little or no attention until a few days latear when he told me the theory.  It goes something along the lines that he thinks I would be great at marriage...but I just can't take that step.  I guess he's right in his own way.  I get scared with all the usual fears along the way amongst other fears....but next time I think I am flying to Vegas, not telling any parental units, and getting married.  Then have a mock wedding afterward to alleviate the fear.  To the rest of the family, it will look like a first wedding...and satisfy their need for a church type wedding and the whole affair.  For me, it will alleviate the wait time that I am not very good at. 

Anyways, if confusion seems to come out of this entry then don't worry, I agree it is highly sporadic. 

As for my all time favorite memory recently?  It comes from last night.  I was watching the De La Hoya vs. Mayweather fight over at another engineer's house with an EO and a family, and the two year old and I were coloring and playing with lego blocks for majority of the night.  We built and HUGE pyramid and then tore it down.  It was exciting.  Finally, around 9:30 his mother decided to put him to bed and he was rather reluctant.  He fought and grabbed a book and crawled into my lap.  I sat there and read him a Mother Goose story....he paid attention the entire time.  At the end of the book, he looked at me and got down and said "Night Night" and went on up to bed with his mother.  It was cute.  That will keep a permanent smile on my face for a long time. 

I want kids....lol.  I am definately tired of the bullshit in my life and I'm ready to settle down.  It's definately coming out in attitude lately.  Definately.  I am ready to move to Indonesia with Daniel...at least I think he's the sanest of my remaining co-workers and friends.  lol.