i feel like im camping. except if i was camping, i suppose there would be other people here or i would be the biggest loser ever. anyways, i feel like that because there are 300 birds and 20,000 bugs outside in the trees that are cqing and cooing and buzzing and chirping and they have been doing it for like 7 days straight. they always did it at night, but now it is reaching into the day. it is 11:46 AM what are you all still doing? i think they are confused.

my mom bought me these cheap toasty oats and i hate them but i also had some regular cheerios and i have just been mixing them in. i feel special. except the real cheerios get soggy and yummy while the toasty oats must be made of cardboard or plywood becuase they will not absorb the milk. so i can still tell that they are there.

why cant a woman in her 20's not pull off a bowl hair cut. lucky for me i am not quite there yet so i will go ahead and get a bowl hair cut again. no really i wont, but i wish i could. i was cuter then and my hair wasnt curly, which has really been getting on my nerves

i was born with black straight hair. and then it got curly and blond and then it got dark brown and straight and that is the point which i sported the bowl cut, and then all of a sudden it got curly and light brown and then extremely curly and dark when i was in junior high, and then it got a little lighter and now it is starting to not be curly anymore. and it is turning blond. thats allright i guess. i think people think that i have highlights so they are not as amazed as me, but i assure you no, i really do have streaks of blond in my hair.

i miss my brother. he used to be so cute and silly. now he is like 30 and is an alcoholic and wont return people's calls.

i just bought the biggest bowls ever. i find them wonderful to eat ice cream or in this case, cereal, out of. but i cant finish the bowl. that is how big they are. i wonder if anyone has ever filled up the 30,000 character limit on the diary entry page. i think i could post the bible and still have room for comment at the end with that kind of a limit. i dont think anyone could ever read someone's diary entries if they were 30,000 characters long. that is just so extremely long. right now i dont even have 3,000 characters, so it would be all that i just wrote times 10. and i know, i know... it is hard enough to get through just this much shit. i still have 600 letters till i even get to the 3,000 mark so i think i will keep going. tootsie rolls are great, but mine are all melted. so now they are out for show and maybe someone else will feel sorry for them and eat them anyways. i have to go to the eye doctor. that sucks cause i have to wear my "reading/driving/wear them in school cause you cant see 5 people in front of you" glasses all the time, so i know he will probably just up my prescription and make me wear them all the time. and i have to go to the ear doctor, i know there is a more technical term for ear and eye doctors and i could say them and look smart but i dont like smart people anymore, but i cant hear out of one of my ears anymore and that could be a problem i guess. i say what so many times that i actually think it is funny, everyone else feels sorry for me. i could be looking straight at you, reading your lips, with my ears less then a foot in front of you and you say something to me 4 times and i swear to god i still probably wouldnt hear you. i can hear things when i am not trying to hear them, but people talking to me is horrible. so usually i just dont talk to anyone. i guess it is embarassing. but i am excited about getting my hearing aid. i know i sound like a big dork, but it is so hard without one and i have had such trouble hearing for the past 4 years and my mom cant hear worth a crap so i know it will only get worse, that i would rather be the retard with the hearing aid then the retard that makes you repeat something 5 times to me and it turns out all you were saying was hello. which has happened before. oh and somewhere in that period i did make it to 3,000 characters. so take all this and multiply times 10 and that is one entry. should i keep going... i think not.

good 'ay mates