nv is taking everything i hate in life and magnifing it beyond preportion
nv is crying every night
nv is depressing, full of memories i've tried very hard to forget
my father's house is all the childhood memories i never wanted to deal with. . .
it's my brother's drug phase
never thinkuing i'd see him again
it's a divorce
it's adam hating his life, and being the one he talked to
it's a father who i have little to no memories of
it's him treating my brother as if he were lower than dirt
it's all the reasons i wish i had never been born. . . without me adam's life would've turned out better. . .
it's the one place i want to block out of my memory until the end of time. . .
it's never been abd never will be remotely anything like home
sorry, was set off by an e-mail from my father who has a girlfriend, who after further looking into is the mother of a friend of my brother's. . . one of the worst influences ever on his life. the only one of his friends i ever did not feel right around, someone i got a very bad feeling from being in's company. . . bleh, im fine, really i am