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So things have been a bit crazy. I only have a week left in Tampa and I am going insane with all the last minute work, and packing I have to do. Me and boy had a slight break up, not really break up, but a conversation about breaking up. Things between us are just too difficult and especially with his schedule now, I can't imagine being that busy and I guess it's hard for me to understand that he has less time for me. We talked last night for about 3 hours about anything and everything. He kept sayin that he has never not known what to say to me, and he always does until now. He told me how he cares about me tremendously and how there isn't 5 minutes that pass in a day where he doesn't think about me. It was a long talk, a sad talk and it really bothered me. Suprisingly I didn't cry which shocked me, but I just think it all hasn't settled in yet and a part of me feels like this isn't it just yet. I love him I really do. I have never kissed anyone and felt like it meant so much. Things are fucked up and it's a difficult time for me right now, with boy, leaving my new best friends, moving back to jersey and trying to deal with all this new family bullshit. I'm stressed to say the very least and now I'm scared, scared of losing the best thing that has happened to me in a long long time. I'll write soon.....
I wrote your name in the sky,
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