Dear Eastman School of Music,

Stop messing with my head!

I have already accepted the fact that my chances of being admitted are slim. And I’m okay with that. Really, I am. Since I had some issues with my application and it’s been over a month since I sent in the application, I was pretty sure that my recording didn’t impress you enough to get me an audition. While I realize that a month and a half isn’t a very long period of time to process what must be countless applications, if my memory serves me correctly, the dates for voice auditions were all in January. I could be wrong.

I’m a little confused, really. The last statement you sent me said that you “aim to confirm your audition dates in three weeks.” By which time, it will most definitely be February.

I was probably mistaken.

The other problem I have is that I’m not sure that I have an audition. I’m not sure what you mean by “confirm your audition date.” Does it mean that I have the audition, that I should make the travel arrangements, prepare the music and wait with breath unabated? Or does it mean that I may or may not get the audition and you’ll let me know in three weeks time?

I was ready to move on with my life, pour all my hopes into SFCM or Northwestern, forget that you ever existed or pretend that it’s your loss. Don’t get me wrong, it would be an honor to even receive an audition. You are my dream school. And maybe an audition  would help me a achieve a sense of closure on our relationship.

I just don’t know. So I will leave with you with these parting words:

What does it mean?!

Forever yours (in spirit, most likely)

Anastacia.