Things have changed so much in the last month. I'm back where I started again. This time with less to show for it. Go me? ha.
There are more good things going on right now than bad. Just takes time to heal a broken heart & broken spirit. I've been changing a lot of things to speed it along & I'm making some really awesome progress.
I haven't been this small in at least 4 years. That is supposed to boost my self esteem, but I'm waiting for my mind to catch up. I still feel like I'm the same size I was. Maybe some new clothes along the way can help convince my slow brain to catch on.
I'm working on me for a while. I'm not too sure how to go about teaching yourself to love yourself, but I'm going to give it a hell of a try. I'm sure the saying is true that you truly can't love someone without loving yourself first. I'm sortof in a love/hate thing with myself right now, so yeah...when that changes I'm sure more will fall into place.
Until then, I'm existing. Trying to rebuild distant friendships from my past & working on making new ones as well. I'm sure trying to keep busy will help a lot too. I'm looking forward to a social life again. I miss going places & doing exciting things.
I guess that's it for now.
More to come eventually.