with you walkin', hooker!
People make me feel like my ideas about life are stupid sometimes. It makes me a little nuts. I hate that no one can understand why I think things. Like I'm a child and everything I think is dumb. For example, I was talking to Bri today about how I can't wait to be able to quit Giant and exclusively do hair and massages so that I can color my hair hot pink again. She told me I'm too old for that. Like there's an age cap on coloring your hair silly colors. Actually what she said was "are you trying to be 16 again?" No, in fact, I am not. I'm trying to be myself. It's the only person I know how to be. She told me that people wouldn't take me seriously. Which is also untrue. You can command attention and respect even looking like an oddball. If I want to be weird, why shouldn't I? She said that she could see me on What Not To Wear one day. As if I dress like a slob. Which I do not. I know how to look professional. And guess what? You can still look professional and classy with pink hair and tattoos. She told me she wants a "normal life," to which I replied normal is a term to which I give no thought. Everyone has a different idea of normal and everyone has a very different life. Why should I put myself in a box because I've reached a certain age? That's silly. She said something to the effect of she would only do something "crazy" like dye her hair pink when she was older if she found out she "had cancer or something and didn't give a fuck." Why wait until you're dying to do things that make you happy?? Ever since Avo's accident I have fully embraced the idea and life philosophy that I could walk out my door and get hit by a bus tomorrow, so why not enjoy today? If it will make me happy, and it's within my means, I will do it. Fuck what people think about me. Who cares? I'm the only one who has to live with my decisions as long as I'm not hurting anyone.
And speaking of "normal lives," she's a lesbian with a child... How normal does she expect her life to be?? She says things about not wanting to make his life "worse," as if it's bad to be herself. I sincerely think that these ideas of hers are because her mother lives in normal town where everyone is the same and anyone slightly different should be sent out to an island and shot. Her mother thinks I'm immature. Okay, I'm the immature asshole who is in school full time and has two part time jobs. All of my bills are paid on time, I almost never call off work [in the three years I've been at Giant I've called off three times, once because my grandmother died, once because I had pink eye, and once because I was throwing up,] I go to school every day, I clean my house, my car always has gas in it... Yeah, I'm real fucking immature. Ahh whatever.
In other news, I'm almost done with school. Hopefully I should be done by the end of July. Fingers crossed! I need 30 more cuts, 11 more perms, and 9 more scalp treatments. I'm super stressed/worried about the perms. I feel like I'll never get them. I keep trying and trying but no one fucking wants them! I don't know why they can't just let us wrap them and have that be the end of it. If someone is willing to come in and let me wrap their hair in perm rods and fake doing the chemical part and I'll just pay for it myself why isn't that enough? They claim that they just want to make sure we know how to do things, but I don't see why a demonstration wouldn't be enough then.
My sister is pregnant. She just turned 20 the weekend before last. She's due in July. The fetus has a penis, so I shall have a little gremlin nephew =] I made him a pretty sick blankie. I'm actually really excited about it. I'm just kind of pissed that my parents have decided that this means that she now has an all access pass to whatever the hell she wants. It's irritating. I feel like my whole life I've been the "good kid" and she's been basically rewarded for bad behavior. Like if I got B's in school it was "you can do better, Sam" but if she got C's in school it was "woo Kasey you did awesome."
I don't know. I think I'm done now. That was a fun rant =] I'll see you all in a few months when I decide to [or have time to] do this again haha.