I don't want to want him. Honestly, I don't. He actually drives me crazy, which I think is what I find so attractive about him. He's weird, he annoys me, yet all day at work all I could think about was jumping him in the laundry room. he's such a flirt. Of course, the kids pick up on this obvious tension. The older ones are already starting to try and hook us up. He made all these crazy comments today and all I can think about is how I get to see him this weekend and how he's leaving town at the end of the month anyways.

Funny enough, the boy was working with us today. Did he notice the flirting? Does he notice anything I do? I hope it just makes him try harder. He may lose me. Not to the coworker...oh, no. It's just that I'm so sick of being ignored. I complained last week so he tried harder for a minute. We went to another coworker's birthday party, had a blast drinking and dancing, and came home and had the best sex we've had in ages. He could barely keep his hands off of me in the elevator. I miss that. I miss being attractive to someone. The coworker told me today that he found me very attractive. This was out of nowhere, unprovoked. I know I should back off, probably should have let him know that the boy is, well...my boyfriend. But I wanted it. I almost hoped we'd be overheard. I puposely came home and got online so if he called...meh, I'm not available.

This is so wrong. I know it is...but I just don't care.