I have more drama in my life than anyone ever should. I don't know what my problem is. You'd think I'd grow up and be done with this but Nooooo...I can't just leave all thing well enough alone. Dee and I broke up in November. For good this time. Since then, he has become the wonderful attentive boyfriend that I have no desire to have. I mean, it's not that I have no desire for a boyfriend who is wonderful and attentive, I just have no desire to go THERE again. I mean, seriously dude, you're 15 shades of crazy and have more issues than the huge collection of Batman comics you have. Get your shit together and you really might make a great boyfriend someday, but not for this girl. So anyways, before we broke up, there was this White Trash party with some friends. He wasn't invited because I wasn't taking a date. Nobody really talks about this party and I promise you won't find pictures on facebook. It was like this unspoken agreement that we wouldn't post the pics. Anyhow, I got drunk and made out with a friend of a friend, who is around all the time, and honestly, it'd been a long time coming. I had every intention of leaving it there. I will make out with just about anyone, but he realized he kinda did like me, and I realized I kinda did like him, and such the whole Alan situation was born. That was the end of August. So, it continued. I was basically dating 2 guys. One I liked, the other I loved and had no idea how to break up with. I'm going to shorten for the sake of my sanity, and just put it this way: don't make out with friends of friends...you will have to see them all the time. Also, don't try to just mess around with boys with morals. It's not going to end well. I hate the fact that just as it seemed things were getting back to normal and we could hang out and not be awkward, things got weird again. We were hanging out drinking on Friday, and according to everyone else, he was super flirty. I didn't see it, especially after how badly things ended, but everyone else did, making things impossibly weird for me because let's face it, he's all I've thought about for months. Sigh. Dee called me the other day to say that he saw my new haircut on facebook and I looked hot. Too little, too late, buddy.