So, I've kinda become obsessed with being back on here, which is strange because most of the people that I used to read aren't even still around. I think I need an outlet for all the crazy shit that goes on in my life. I mean, everything has been turned upside down in the past 6 months...my job of 9 years was taken from me and I was demoted for no real reason other than to save money. I got a great new job, which I love. Better hours, better money, way less stress. But I miss having coworkers and people to share the load and hell, just to talk to! I broke up with the man I thought I'd marry. If he had the balls to actually talk about it, I probably would have. Life is just not what I thought it would be. I can't remember for the life of me who the fuck I am anymore. I have no idea. I hoped that coming back and reading some of my old stuff, I could reconnect. Sad part is, I just look at past me as a cute little kid. She had such an overly optimistic outlook on life. I'm not her anymore either. I am basically rebuilding my entire life. It's fucking HARD.