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Heart's Blood
by DarkSidhe

Age: 31    Sex : M

Change 6/29/2012

Yesterday, I didn't end up getting as much done as I would have liked. I got pretty frustrated with some of the people in my office, because there wasn't a lot of work, so they spent a lot of time sitting around and talking... which is fine, except it's all about basketball, which I couldn't care less about. Still, it wasn't too bad. There was also a lot of focus on the Supreme Court healthcare decision, and I got to go for a walk, so that was enjoyable. My heart has been bothering me again... or at least I'm having weird feelings and pains in my chest. I'm fairly sure a lot of it is from stress, and tension in my back muscles, but in any case, it felt good to get moving again. I walked really fast again, and I guess it has been long enough since last time that my calves were still getting pretty sore as I went, but I kept up the pace, and though a bit sore at the end of the 2 miles, felt fine. Last time, I had a bit of pain from it, but this time, I was just a little sore. Maybe I am getting better. Anyhow, it was pretty hot, but I was prepared, and had a floppy hat. When I came back, I drank a lot of water, but am not sure if I ever quite caught up, because I developed a pretty severe headache in the afternoon that was really bad when I got home. I fed the kitties and took some medicine, and then decided a shower might be in order, since my hair was getting kind of greasy (not really bad, but it had been hot, and it had been combed a lot), and I thought the weight of it might be giving me the headache. Megan came home while I was in the shower, and I felt a bit better afterwards, but still had a headache. I recently had a coupon for a place, and used it to buy a qlink bracelet. It's a thing that's supposed to block ambient electromagnetic radiation. Anyhow, it arrived yesterday, so I decided to put it on, and Megan and I reclined on the daybed in the extra room with the kitties, and she told me about her day. I didn't feel up to cooking (and we had neglected to defrost the chicken we were going to make, anyway), so we decided to go out. At first, Megan wanted a crab pretzel, and we were going to go to this sports bar place nearby that had one, but I told her my initial thought was to get Chinese, so we wouldn't have to go out, but then I started to feel better, and we had plans for the weekend, so we decided to go out to the Chinese buffet, because Chinese sounded good, but we didn't want leftovers. We went there, but, having already talked about our day, ended up not having a lot to talk about, unfortunately. Anyhow, we came home after dinner, took out the trash, and then went to bed early. I was glad to get a little bit of extra sleep.

We had planned to go to West Virginia with Matt and Ryan in July, but Megan recently found a free LGBT Wedding Expo thing that same weekend, and they finally got back to us, so we're changing our plans, and spending the weekend at our house, and then going to that with them. I was looking forward to the getaway, but it's probably for the best that we will be doing it this way, since this way we won't need to take off extra days (I've already taken off a lot this year, between the England trip, and a week long getaway with my mom at the end of July, and Megan wants me to take off some around Christmas), and it's really cool that Megan found that expo while Ryan was in Maryland, since a lot of wedding expos wouldn't be too friendly to what they are planning, it's free to boot, and it'll really help them, I think. We will also get to still hang out together, which should be fun.

This morning, I was a bit slow to get up. Yesterday, I had put two and two together with the Colorado wildfires and my friend Andy living in Colorado, and then looked up where he lived in relation to the fires, saw one was nearby, and asked him on Facebook if they had affected him. This morning, he wrote back, which was a relief, but then I ended up looking at Facebook for a long time, and had to rush to get out on time. I still made it to work on time (Megan gets to telework today), so that's good.

We have plans to go to Ocean City for a day trip tomorrow, so that should be fun. We have been trying to go for a good while, so it will be nice to actually make it. Perhaps I can even out my tan a bit (all this walking has given me a pretty good farmer's tan on my forearms and neck). It should be fun to visit the shops and stuff, too. On Sunday, Megan has to fly to New York for work, so I'll have the afternoon to myself. It will be nice to have a sort of mini-retreat for a while. We were planning to make a turkey, but can't now, so I'll save it for later. With my heart acting funny, I might just have oatmeal for dinner or something... it would be good to eat more heart-healthy things. I think I already do pretty well, but could always improve on it.

Last night, I played the guitar for a while before bed. That was nice. I didn't really re-invent the wheel or anything, but just played whatever came to mind and felt good to play. I have been a bit more musical, lately, and while I'm trying not to pressure myself, I'm trying to just make more room for playing guitar and writing music again. Perhaps I'll use some of my time while Megan is away to work a little with ACID to make up some cool backing tracks and things to start me making music again. Perhaps I'll also try some other avenues of expression... maybe fire up that Rocksmith game again, or one of the Rock Band things that teach you to play the drums... just to try some new things (and play games, to boot). I could also stand to take some time for reflection... maybe some yoga... a little exercise would be nice, too. If it's not too hot, I could go out kayaking... or something. There are a lot of things I could do... and I guess I always come down to this... but I'll just try to make the most of it, because it's a valuable time for me.

I've been reading that Introvert Power book, and it's helping me to realize things about myself... which I kind of already knew, but the book is telling me that it's okay to be that way, and sort of supporting me in being how I am, and understanding why I do some of the things I do the way I do them. I would recommend it if you are at all introverted. It's one of the reasons I can now point to when I relish the time when Megan has gone somewhere for work. It's not because I just like when she is away, but because I do enjoy having time for myself. Time to just think about things, and relax, and pursue my own interests. It's like a mini-retreat... a way for me to find myself again. Granted, I need that more because perhaps I don't set good enough boundaries, or take enough time for myself to just do those things normally, but it's a way I can just have things work out in a way that feeds my soul. At the very least, it has been helping me to understand myself.




I'm not a doctor or anything, but I'm pretty sure the added weight of naturally-occurring "hair grease" won't cause a headache. [ion] 6/30/2012 11:51:20 PM
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