I'm almost really proud of myself.

I had an extra, non-mandatory psych class today and it was a lot of fun. Mostly because Dr. B was an hour. He had an emergency with his gas tank at home and needed Yankee Gas to come. So he called and had the message relayed to us that he wouldnt be there until 1. So.. I had a WHOLE hour to sit with my psych buddy and crush, Rob. I've sat next to him all semester. He's sweet, funny, has beautiful eyes, and is OH so CUTE! I love him to death. Anywho... We talked, shared stories, laughed, went outside together, and talked some more. It was wonderful. We were sharing drinking stories and he said to me that I should come out to UConn with him some time and party with him and his friends. I melted! Oh would I do that in a heartbeat! That totally made my day. So, since he had said that to me, I had every intention of giving him my phone number after class. I have NEVER in my life done something like that before. It is completely unlike me. I'm always entirely too scared and self conscious. But I really really really was going to. We continued talking throughout class, cracking jokes and helping each other when we didnt catch everything Dr. B said. *sighs* It was great. After class I wrote down my number on a piece of paper and I was going to give it to him when we got outside. But when we go out there it was freezing so Rob smiled and said have a good weekend, see you Monday, and ran to his car before I could even try to hand it to him. DAMNIT! The one time I was actually going to be brave enough to hand someone I dont know that well my phone number, and he darts off. So... I was almost really proud of myself for that. If I had actually been able to do it I would have been DAMN proud. But alas.... So I've decided that if I cant muster up the guts to give it to him on Monday at our final, then I'm going to add him to Myspace and pursue us hanging out through there. Cus damn do I want to. I have such a crush oh him. This is the first time I've had a real crush on someone in... man, 3 - 4 years (if you dont count my ex from a year and a half ago.. which I dont lol). That's a long time! *le sigh* Who knows, maybe I'll get lucky and he'll give me his phone number. *laughs uncontrollably* Okay, yeah, so I'm pushing my luck on that one, but a girl can dream can't she?

*goofy grin*