"Lay your head on my pillow, here you can be yourself. No one has to know what you are feeling, no one but me and you. I won't tell your secrets, your secrets are safe with me. I will keep your secrets, just think of me as the pages in your diary. I feel such a connection, even when you're far away." -Alicia Keys That is a beautiful song. Like one of those songs where everyone wants to be in that situation but nobody is. Ha. When we left for lunch today the weather was amazingggg and sunny and warm and in Melissa's car it felt like summer because the sun made the seats all hot. Loved it. By the time we left Dunkin Donuts it was black outside and rained a half hour later. That's Jersey I guess. I wanna keep Nicholas. The other three girls I don't care much about. And they have good homes already lined up. But the girl who was gunna take Nick maybe can't now. And I wanttttt him. Because he's the most precious thing and the pads on his feet alternate pink and black. Someone great should take him. I've been going back and forth the past couple weeks between really wanting to quit smoking and really not wanting to. It's the dumbest thing in the world to do to yourself but I love it. I've been looking at prom dresses. I think I want a short one. Be different. We'll see. This is boringgggg.