why do you have to disappear at all the wrong moments. I mean yeah i know its only been a day since we talked but i hate it. I wish i didn't worry so much. i  can't change this i guess that's the hardest thing for me. I can't fix it. i can't change this one... i need to quit feeling sorry for myself it's not that pretty on a 20 year old girl. It's heartbreaking to think  you're making progress only to fall backward AGAIN. Psychotic LILGIRL why do you care so much?...I dunno, it just takes over my thoughts most of the time, and it's hard to push.