so i have this friend well used to have this friend that drove me crazy...she made me feel like crap alot...but i still cling to be her friend...i don't know why or what my issues are....she made me go crazy which is why we are not friends at the moment...but at times i miss having that person i could share things with....i don't know what to do....on one hand i know i can't be the kind of friend she needs and on the other hand....i don't like to not have her around permanently...i feel like things are too screwed up at this point to go back....and it's sooooooo frustrating.... i feel sick to my stomach about it...and no one even knows....or understands.... it shouldn't matter but it does to me... i can't do anything about it now i know....i just wish it didn't make me feel this way!!! it's like she can have normal friendships with everyone except people who get too close....and maybe i'm the same way just in the opposite direction....blah...i wanna punch something cause i'm frustrated and don't know how to handle it.... i guess the only solution is to just cry a little while and come to turns with my own actions in the situation...had we talked maybe it would be the way it is right now....maybe things would be different...but maybe...they wouldn't.