since it's all a fetish with me, as i believe, i shudnt expect anything at all at all at all...

but even friends care?

butbutbut...i shud noe, i think at least, it's realli hard for pple like tt to be fwens...nth more. esp with my obsessive nature...

and how, how we nvr have anything to talk abt...

nth...nth at all...

how, i realli wish we did. because there's smth tt's been there for a long time. for me.

but forget it.

it'll nvr work out. it's juz me with my obsessions.