to be able to write like that.

not for an audience. like. ladies and gentlemen. and all that. side i keep putting up. the let's be enthu. let's be friends. let's get friendly fast.

i almost think. it doesnt work like that.

i noe how im like.

i noe i dont work this way.

slipping outta obsessions as fast as i get into dem.

dey fade. when nth comes up to. make it otherwise.

and yet it's just all wrong and irritating.

but i am having fun. being very happy.

and yet im not realli happy.

smth on my mind like that.

like last time. looking mildly unhappy.

im not. realli realli chatty.

but you're just tootoo good.

it's fine. fine. just that when i talk with pple of the past. it feels so starkly different.

im so tired. not realli. lil things keep me going. silly things.

i am tired like that.