Ugh. They lost everything I have to go back and do it all over and it will most likely take hours upon end.  I'm procrastinating . I don't like to fix anything.  It shouldn't have happened. Not my fault. But I have to fix it.  Irony? No. The story of my life.

Jon left.  Bangor I do believe but I can't be sure.  He's really not even worth it anymore, but, routine is habit and habits are hard to break.  If I had any dignity or pride I'd just walk away, but... I'm comfortable. Or so I make myself believe. Ah. So over-dramatic and it takes over every bit of me. And I lie. Whoa that felt good.

You give me the anger.
You give me the nerve.
Carry out the sentence.
I get what I deserve.
I'm just an effigy to be defaced.
To be disgraced.
Your need for me has been replaced.
And if I can't have everything well then just give me a taste.