|Ideologies and Upheavals|
The much loved, Gorbachev, Dr. Seuss, and my Mom all celebrate birthdays today. Well, unless they're dead. I'll celebrate for them anyway, dead or alive.
I think I hate my English teacher, (Smeagol we call him). He tries so hard to be "hip" but, he just scares most of us. When Melba presented "Going to California" by Led Zeppelin, he was like "You know about Led Zeppelin right?...blah blah blah,...seventies...drugs...sex...with.....women." OK, even if she didn't know, she could've guessed from all their songs. Jesus Christmas, Smeagol! He never even had a led zeppelin album when he was a kid becuase he was a dork. And he thinks hes the only one who knows about Tolkien and his mythologies. I guess we Tolkien fans are all like that to a point, but, I dunno, he's just ridiculous and scary looking so he can't get away with it.
So..uh, I got into a tiff with Jess and Brian recently. They've been sorta mean to me lately, not just about the archeology dream, but overall. So, when we had a fight at the play, I thought, this really is the last straw. Not so much with Jess, but Brian. I like Jess, and I'm not one who likes losing friends, but she always is tagging along (if I may say so) with Brian. I feel like he controls her life, though its not forceful controlling because she wants him to. I wish she would be more independant. He doesn't realize how lucky he is to have Jess. I mean, if they hadn't met or got together, would Brian really ever have a relationship with someone like her ever? I don't think so. I mean, up until recently, most everyone regarded him as annoying or whatever. Now they annoy me. Especially since Brian holds control on that entire little lunch cirlce in some way or another. Whether it be what they wear, or who they ask on dates, Brian is the main influence, and they all look to him as a God, or as Melba says, as King. I guess everyone is too lazy to think for themselves, too self-consciouss. And Brian feeds into that. I mean, all kids do, like "What are you wearing?" "Whats with your hair?" "Don't say that to girls!" "Buy this shirt and these pants." "Bernard, say this to Melba the next time you fight..." Ok, all of those things are normal peer-pressure type things to say, well, except the last one. But these are all things he says to them. And whether he realizes it or not, he holds such an influence over them all, that he does control them to a certain point. As for Jess, I don't know how she looks on their relationship. I know she cares about him, but she helps give him these odd powers. She asked him to choose a career for her once. (shouldn't she choose based on her own wants?) And, if he has an opinion against something, like "so and so is WRONG" she's prone to think that way too. I know, it's normal for people to do that when they are around such opinionated people all the time, but some of his opinions aren't exactly the best. I find that both him and Anthony are very similar in selling their ideas and opinions. They can make a lot of sense when the person talks, but if you think back to it later, you realize how screwed up the logic can be. Not that its always this way, but some of the time. I still find that Brian and Anthony are funny and pretty good people overall. But too overbearing. And Jess, she does normal sweet girl friend things for him all the time, like bake all sorts of cookies and she does his homework all the time, but he barely appreciates this attention the way he should. She does too much for him, too much. But maybe I don't understand it, becuase I don't see how love can be this way (blind as adrienne says. which sounds mean, but is sorta true), especically when we are so young. I probably don't understand, also because I myself have never been in love. Maybe one day I will understand. But that doesn't make Brian's king like control right. (lol, his parents are robots?)
Anyway, I think it will be funny if one of them reads that (not unlikely), I'll get an earful, or otherwise lots of hate mail and dirty looks at school. Oh well? It's just an opinion.
try the beatles version:
What would you do if I sang out of tune,