I had one of those 'Crazy Pregnancy dreams' that i've read about. I dreamed that Brandon wasnt even the picture and i had 3 canidates to choose as the father of my Baby. All three i went to high school with which was odd. I had Brent of course, Phil (really sub-concious Phil?) and Brents brother Matt. Strange things occured during my times with each. Phil was beyond sweet and adorable, not his everyday qualitys. He asked me for a kiss that was pretty adorable.

Then Matt. During Matts dream i told him that he was the father and he was freaking out. Not in the plan and im kinda just going ok I can deal with this and just kinda stayed together for apperances. Then i misscarried and delivered a one inch long dead baby. I was heart broken but apparently found this to be ok. Cause Matt and I werent right. We stayed together and that lead to us going to his Familys for a holiday where i met up again with Brent... which is just a recipie for a disaster. Cause when ever i dream of him the conection is too strong to deny and all the family members could see it and Matt and I werent really together anymore so there was no reason to... Kinda like Dan in real life where they get together and Marie comes with one Brother but leaves in love with the other.Oh Well.

The Funny thing is after a dream like that i am having trouble feeling conected to my baby today. Oh Im Pregnant i feel it in the boobs and the fact that im still a bit moody and i want to toss us anything that i think of eating.But its like im having a hard time thinking that there is a life other then mine in me. I dunno. is that normal?

As Always,

Misty