I DONT KNOW HOW PEOPLE DO IT?

I JUST WANT TO CURL UP AND CRY SOMETIMES

I MISS HIM SO MUCH AND HE HAS NO FUCKING CLUE, AND DOESNT CARE

LILA HE'S NOT MISSING YOU!

AND I KNOW IT, SO WHY CANT I GET ANGRY ENOUGH TO JUST HATE HIM. I WANT TO SO BADLY, IT WOULD HELP ME SO SO SO MUCH.

I HAVE NEVER HAD ANY PROBLEMS WALKING AWAY FROM ANYONE. NEVER. WHY IS THIS ASSHOLE ANY DIFFERENT?

TODAY JUST IS NOT A GOOD DAY FOR ME.

I LIKE TO THINK ITS GETTING BETTER.

I REALLYJUST WANTTO BEAT HIM DOWN. LIKE CRAZY MAD WOMAN BEAT DOWN.

BUT I HAVE DONE REALLY WELL I HAVENT CALLED, I HAVENT MADE ANY EFFORT, BUT MYHEART IS BREAKING.

THIS SO SUCKS.

LICK YOUR TOES AND SAY YOUR PRAYERS