well, things have been ___ lately.  i cant seem to figure out how to describe it. i have my good days and i have my bad. overall, this wekend has been pretty good. friday started out aweful. john got mad at me bc he said i havent been acting like myself lately. then i found out that josh ranew doesnt want to date me even though all week he had been telling becka we were gonna go out friday and he even called me one night. he didnt even bother to tell me we werent going out. he told john "im going to college soon. i want college girls." pig. lol. so i was sad bc i felt like such a loser. i mean, i went out on a date with josh sanford a few weeks ago and then we didnt really talk much after that. he didnt ask me out again. he didnt even tell me he had a good time. then the last weekend while becca and ally were out with their boyfriends i was with my MOM. i mean its nice sometimes but in the past 6 months ive gone out twice besides all the times with my mom. and now ranew doesnt want to date me. it makes me feel like somethings wrong with me even though i know theres not. but anyway, i got home friday night and finally stopped pouting over boys. then i decided to call bryan and ask him to take me out. it was awesome. it seemed just like old times. we ate at applebees and went back to his house to play pool for a little while. then he took me for some ice cream. it was so nice being able to spend time with him again. i was really surprised by the things he remembers about me...like the fact that i love ice cream and cant eat it without spilling it all over me. lol. then saturday was charles' birthday so we went to get dinner and i watched juts-tin all day.  then today i watched him again. hes so cute. well i gotta go study for my exam tomorrow. so ill catch you guys on the flip side! take care and stay safe!

everything happens for a reason...that hard part is trying to figure out what the reason is.