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So i write today with an entry title! Over the past couple of weeks i've realised i've accomplished something i've wanted for a long time. And that was to find my true self... Now Im not claiming to have worked myself completely out but i have discovered I AM COMFORTABLE IN MY SKIN, I'M HAPPY WITH WHERE MY LIFE IS NOW AND WHERE IT IS GOING & NOT TO DOUBT MYSELF!
I had this ephiphany thursday before last whilst lying in a hospital bed! I was lay there thinking - i hope everything is okay and i realised although i was ill.... i realised that i didnt hate myself, what i was doing, who i was "being" or anything like that. And i smiled to myself.... Thank god for that its been a good 8 yrs since i didnt regret things or wish i could change things....
So yea so thats that.... update on my health - i've passed out again twice this past week but had really bad chest pains! They've discovered i have an irregular heartbeat so i'm undergoing tests to see how serious it is and what is best course of action to take to combat it and stop my having these episodes! So eventually 10 yrs after these things started i have a cause and i'm happy if not a little worried! So im recuperating at home with my gorgeous man!
Wedding invitations are decided and we've ordered them - just got to wait now! Lawries friends are visiting for the football in 2 weeks and my parents are back from their holiday!
I wish you all well xxx
p.s. I metup with amy a fortnight ago! Was lovely to see her again - hope to catch up properly tho asap!