*** June 5, 2004

So, what has been happening lately? I got the research job at school that I wanted, so I am very excited about that. I start tomorrow. Plus, I get to make my own schedule, as long as it's 20 hours a week, so I was thinking 10-3 Mon, Tues, Thurs, Fri. That was, I never have to get up too early, and I get a day off in the middle of the week in case I need to play catch up on anything.

Joe's first visit home has come and gone. It was a fun time. We went to the hookah bar with Andy, Umit, Matt Prewitt and Haitham. That is such a neat place. I told Kelli about it, and she says thatshe wants to go next time, which suprised me, because I thought she wouldn't like all the smoking because of her throat, but if she wants to come, hey, I couldn't be happier. A very un-Heather like thing happened on Friday night with Joe. I went over there around 9 and had some amazing haven't-seen-each-ther-in-two-weeks sex. Afterwards, he was laying with me, and I started to cry! Just out of nowhere, right after we had sex! I guess I was just really happy to see him and sad that we were going to have to do the whole semi-long distance thing all summer. In any case, I pulled my shit together pretty quick, but I was still embaressed. I think Joe was really taken aback. He said it was okay, not for me to feel embaressed, and that he was flattered. In any case, it was very out of character for me, but whatever. I guess I know how I really feel, huh?

*** June 8, 2004

I stopped this entry a couple of days ago I think because I had to pee, and just never finished it. So here I am, still, going in the wrong direction. I went to Planned Parenthood yesterday because I have a UTI, and I weighed 117 pounds there. 117! Jesus! I just can't get ahold of it anymore. For a while, I was 112, 111...doing so well, and now, what? What? What? What? What? What do I do?