woooow i havent written in here in a long assss time! so much has happened.. that i guess i need to update a little bit. i guess it's just really weird reading stuff that i wrote like half a year ago.. i used to be so different, at least a little more upbeat, but since the time period of then and now i have changed soo much, and it's hard to recognize myself anymore. it's good to get a little piece of me back.
soo let's see.. where do i even begin? if i'm correct, one of my last entries was on may 22nd. april 3rd i went to prom w/ kenny, which was an awesome night. april 9th, one of my good friends, Eric Crane died in a motorcycle accident. i think after that point i just stopped caring. once anna died, i had this sense of disarray.. everything was messed up.. then when it was finally going back to normal, Eric died, and not only was it frustration, but also my own personal hell. nothing has ever been the same since then. i have changed, along w/ all of my other friends, rye and becky are still my best friends.. they always will be(even though sometimes we want to tear each other's heads off) sharon and i resolved our fight over the summer this year, and we are now also really good friends.
my dating life has been very shitty.. ive been too depressed to care, and when i finally thought i found someone that meant something to me, he turned out to be an ass.. that's pat, and yeah, i will probably talk a lot about him in here, since my mind always wonders back to him in one way or another. i've been reading all the entries i wrote about matt.. and it's still true, i miss him a lot. i don't know how to get in touch w/ him, and it's killing me. but i'm not going to let that be another lost cause that i worry about, i guess i just need to forget.. even if he was soo great, i wonder if i talked to him.. if i would still feel the same. i think i would. There are just some things you can't deny no matter how hard you try.
i quit bandy's guard.. so i march piccolo in the band(yeah it sucks big ass) and i do independent guard.. which is totally awesome. i don't really like band anymore like i used to. i might quit, even thought next year will be my senior year.
not only have i changed, but some of my friends, too. it's probably safe to say that i hang out w/ most of the 'potheads' now. that's just how i am. i mean, it's not like i just became friends w/ them because they are potheads, but just because i got in 'the wrong crowd' and they are my friends now. some of my friends are just so funny, i dont know where i'd be w/ out them.
I think the reason that i'm in such a good mood is that i was fucked up a little while ago. i'm really tired right now.. so i'll probably go to sleep here in a little bit. I have another journal(actually 2) but i write in mine at greatestjournal.com a lot. i'm getting tired of it, and i'm glad i can still write in here, i miss it. if anyone wants to read it just for viewing pleasure.. its www.greatestjournal.com/users/acousticskittle
that journal will probably give a better perspective of me now.. even if it's not in a good way. i really like yelling at my journal alot, journal's don't have feelings, so i can yell here. haha. don't ask.
ohh and one more thing, i did meet a guy named Christian, he's really nice, he lives in mooresville, and he's 20. he's an english major and is totally sweet. i hope this works out, because i really really want to get to know him, he's a great guy from what i know so far.. not the type to screw you over. and he doesn't do anything so i can't get in trouble w/ him! :b
well i'm gonna go, cause i'm sooo tired.. it's 1:26 am right now. i'll write tomorrow or something!