Its been so long since I have taken a moment to write but tonight I would like to give it another try.

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There are so many things I have longed to tell you

So many nights my heart has spoken the dark whispers of my soul.

Many times the words have been near my lips

and I look deep into your eyes wanting so much to speak

Your gaze, so longing, so inspiring I cannot

The words fall back into my thorat

choking me.

Taking away the pain I wish to express,

yet pushing it deeper within my being.

I love you so much, I could never hurt you,

which makes these three little words my torment

My own ears cannot hear them

my own lips cannot utter them

yet it torments me day and night.

I love you, with all my heart and soul

But not in the way that you deserve to be loved.

Your face is of undescrible beauty,

your lips as soft as the rose

your breasts soft and warm....

But.......

I AM GAy........

Such freedom, such light (the tears roll down yoru cheek).

My very longings out in the open

My heart and soul finally free

I feel like a million doves set free, allowed to fly

allowed to soar beyond the depths of sight.

I have been released

We are both free..........

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hmm not the best needs some work but its off the top of my head and with much exhauston going on top of all of that lol!! ill work on it some but just felt like it was time to write something for myself.

god bless,

chris