i met this guy last night. juan. or paco, or pedro or jose. well anyways. kelsey and i were kinda bummed cuz our boyfriends had left and pretty much everyone we knew had allready gone home so we had no one to hang out with and no alcohol. we were just sittin in my room and him and some friends walk by, he comes back in and is like 'hmm, have i been in this room before, it looks really famliar" hahaha if that doesnt have obvious written all over it i dont know what does. so apparently they live on the 1st floor and they're all drinkin. awesome. we go down there, drink to our hearts content whilsts making racist coments like no other to mexican and the black guy. and i loved that they werent offended cuz its nice to have some people around that have the same sense of humor that i do. he actaully reminds me alot of paco. anyways kelsey gets tired and goes to bed and juan and i go up to my room with some more booze. nothing really happened but ill just say he was really really nice. it was a nice little self esteem boost. every five seconds he would tell me how amazingly beautiful and sexy i was. and that i just didnt know it. i dont remember falling asleep but i woke up to my brother calling me and letting me know he was outside waiting for me...uh, oops. i wasnt done packing yet. lol. good times.

i meet someone new everyday. its amazing. im pretty sure everyone ive met thats from tri-cities (beside from cody of course) are the nicest people ever. its funny how cody's highschool best friends are now my best friends. the other night after cody was being mad at me i went with patrick to smoke a bowl, or two. and then watched shaun of the dead (ps. best movie ever!) but maybe just cuz i was stoned. well anyways i go back to cody's room after 3 hours or so (i said id only be gone for 1) stay for a bit, dont even speak to cody, then leave again. as soon as i get home british (one of cody's friends, the most amazing guy ever) tells me to come over. so i go over there. everyone's shitfaced. funny as hell. british is the nicest guy ever. he paid 9 bucks for me to get 5-6 shots of jack daniels so i could get drunk with them. what a cutie. i wish i had a picture.so im all drunk with all of cody's best friends and im talking to them about how upset i was about cody. and i started bawling...yea. but anyways. earlier british was telling me how amazing he thought i was, from the first moment he saw me, and when i told him he had the cutest stomach ever. and how he would totally go for me if he didnt have a girl that he loved very much. and marcus told me that he just met me a couple weeks ago but we were best friends and we'd be best friends for life. and then british let me sleep on his bed...the sweetest boy ever. he knows how to treat a girl thats for sure.

its just so hard to believe them when you actually know yourself inside and out.

last week 5 days straight. 3 day break for finals. 4 days straight. i have everything undercontrol. besides, its impossible to be an alcoholic in college, the rules dont apply.