Oh my God my dad is being the biggest asshole.  He all of a sudden decided to try to be my parent again. That's just like what my mother fuckin did. She did whatever the hell she wanted and was never my mother and then when it was convenient for her, she would try to discipline me and be "mommy".  Well my dad isn't about to get away with that shit. He's pretty much been pawning me off on my Nanny for the past year that we've been here. He's always at his damn girlfriend's house.

The other day, he came over to Robby's house to pick me up and he saw that I was in his room with the door closed  Ooooo big fuckin deal- we were in there for less than a minute. So today when he dropped me off over there, he told his parents that he didn't "like it". And then just when I came home tonight, he said that EVEN THOUGH IT'S SUMMER I have to be home by 9 on weekdays. WHAT THE FUCK??????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????? It's the summer! EVERYDAY IS THE WEEKEND! He said it was supposedly because I'm not going to "live there" this summer. But what the hell?! At least I live here at all! He'sonly here 2 or 3 days out of the week. Some dad... Oh and today in the car he looked at me and said, "You look horrible". Gee thanks dad, you know how high my self-confidence is already!  I couldn't be any more angry right now. I want to slit someone's throught... preferably my own. I mean I already don't have a mother- that's a given, and I feel like I have a rental dad. I get him 2 or 3 days out of the week, IF THAT. I hate this fuckin house, I can't ever talk to my nanny because all she wants to talk about is the cooking channel and the cats.... and my dad is always at Tami's house so why does he think I'm never home? I'm so ready to just leave.... I'm fuckin tired of this place. If it weren't for Robby I'd be back in FL by now. What the fuck else do I have up here?  Well I'm gonna go slit my wrists now... I'm out.

-Jess

P.S. no little emo children, I'm not really gonna slit my wrists... and sorry about saying fuck so much but I'm really fuckin pissed. Leave hate notes if you want... just know that if you do, my only respnse is: "fuck you."