... today was meant for us to buy tingyun's present... yet, it's the day where im filled with jealousy, hatred, sadness and despair... and abit of gladness still...

supposing some of us will go out today to buy present for tingyun... so we went shopping for a very very long time...

after getting her present, we went to bugis village to shop... jul and jiao was shopping, they were searching for a new bag...

den they kept walking into few bag shops and walk down the stretch of shop houses... they came to a clothes store.. saw bemudas and wanted to buy them... there's lots of design... they think tt it's their Die's style of clothes, so they wanted them... selling 3 for $10... w/o any thoughts... jul ask laken wan anot... but it was later den jiao asked me... do i wan oso?... ( do i have the choice... the answer is no... ) later she asked again... am i ok anot??? ( im juz used to it...) moreover now... she even more distant to me... in the past, we may have bought things together... but now... nvm... she dun treat me as 1 of them now...

on the mrt... returning home... laken and her stood in front of me... they simply left me out in everything... nvr oso tried letting me into their conversation... i was juz there standing behind them... so close yet so distant... i even think... do i noe them? ppl are looking at them playing... den looked at me... muz be wondering.... does this guy noe them??? YES I NOE THEM!!! but they duno me..........

through the reflection of the windows... i saw laken and her playing and chatting... they stood very close to each other... juz like a couple... they played closely wif each other, juz like a couple... they bite and played with each other, juz like a couple... they chatted and joke juz like a couple... they did everything that me and her used to do... i was jealous... hate filled me, sadness came... im despair.... desperate too... desperate to get her attention on me...

tears filled my eyes... a little... i was pretending to sleep... so tt doesn't matter... laken did not get of at outram... he said he'll accompany jul to jurong east... den return...... heart hurts here...
when they both alight.... a stronger knife stabbed into me... my tears flowed out... quickly wiping it away... i closed my eyes... but i cant stop having their images in my mind...

i wanted to grad now......

on the way home.... i suddenly thought of the titanic model i intended to give her...

den i thought of our friendship... it's juz like titanic..

Titanic, it's a sign of romance, a symbol of love... ever since the movie is screened...
Our friendship is just like it, it's a representation of our relationship.
It hit an iceberg and did not sink for a while... but later broke into two, sank, bringing everything down to the bottom of the ocean.
It brought everything down with it, yet everybody remembered it... nobody forgets it, people still spends time to go near it...
Out titanic, it broke, and sank, bringing down our friendship too.... but they're not forgotten... they're still remembered, at least by me...
I wun forget its majestic, its happy moments, its climax, its beauty, its excitement, its fun, its laughter etc etc....
i hope that u'll remember the friendship tt has sunk and nvr forget the moments we had... take some time... dive into the ocean and look at it again... how beautiful is Titanic, how beautiful is our friendship.....keep it in ur memory, let memories lit u....

there'll nvr be another titanic again in this world.............

love.... weng... ocean_cap....