I watched an episode of How I Met Your Mother yesterday, and this particular episode was about people "being on the hook." How someone tells you they can't be with you...right now. They add on the "right now' part as the hook to make you believe in some distant future time, you will be with that person. Well it got me pissed off. I'm on Coty's hook and he knows it. I call him Mr. Hook now. And he knows what I mean when I say it. Usually I call him gorgeous. That's my pet name for him. He says "good night hboo" (meaning honey bunches of oats) and I say "goodnight gorgeous!". But I'm going to try to put a stop to that. I'm sick of being on a hook and I don't think I deserve it.
Today was a good day for the most part. I woke up and made some eggs for breakfast. I watched a bunch of episodes of Keeping Up with the Kardashians, Stupid, I know! Then I met Coty at his house at around 2:30 because he invited me out for lunch. He got us Qudoba and flirted it up quite a bit and talked for a while. We went back to his place and cuddled while watching How I Met Your Mother. When the episode ended, I asked him: If we didn't work at the same job together would you want me as your girlfriend?
He said he'd be more inclined to say yes if we didn't work together, but he didn't really give me a straight answer. Then fed me some bullshit about how great it was being single. I'm so glad I had to leave for work because i was furious. I've been mad off and on ever since. But work was east breezy and helped me take my mind off of it.
Maybe it's PMS talking, but I'm sick of my love life situation and something needs to change in order for me to be happy.
In other news, I might move out soon. Joe and his friend Shawn are looking for 3 bedroom houses and I agreed to go in on it with them. I told my mom but no one else. I was afraid Coty would be mad at me moving in with a couple dudes. But fuck that and fuck him. He does what he wants. Maybe I should stop factoring him into the decisions I make. I'm lucky I finally found people with the means to move out with me. I hope it works out.