|A Telling Of My Life|
I'm doing alright now. Went to NYC last night, but more about that later. Classes are going good, and we're coming to the end of the semester. I have a bunch of papers due in the next two weeks and I need to get cracking on them, but my attention span is freaking nil. Spent today with some friends and "family" played some video games. Jen made an awesome dinner that filled us all up. Afterward we watched the new movie "Tangled." It was actually really good. I laughed the whole way through it and was pleasantly surprised at it.
Last night the woman (S) that I'm in a relationship with and I drove to NYC. During the drive we talked about all sorts of things. One thing we needed to clear the air on and talk about was the nature of our relationship. I realized, about a week ago, that this was not a normal relationship. Normally, when I'm dating some one I immediately have some sort of feelings getting involved, but in this relationship I don't have them or haven't sorted them out. Neither has she. We're both happy with where the relationship is at. We're more than friends with benefits but not exactly boyfriend/girlfriend either. We are enjoying things as they are and not stressing about it. We've both had our shares (and your share, and your share) of bad relationships. Things like people that were completely inappropriate for us, or abusive or just bad for us. I talked with my roommate (or S) about it when I first realized what was going on. I talked about how men and women in America (and probably elsewhere) are all raised to believe that we would meet the "One True Love," fall in love, and end up with a "Happily Ever After" life. Things like movies and stories that people tell their children all lead to this fallacy of "Cinderella" and "Snow White" beliefs. Anyway, this isn't a condemnation of hopes and dreams, it's an idea that it's time to keep the dreams alive and if you find one hold on, but not at the expense of living life. Enjoy what you have.
I'm not going to go into details about last night, unless people ask for them. It wasn't the same as the first time, but it was definitely interesting.
PS: This was like six months ago.