i swear if i could only let people know how much i wish that they could understand that sometimes i just need to be left alone. and yet, at other times, how much i need their attention. because i think i'm nothing but a mass on contradictions, and i'm learning once again that you can forget about me, not bother about me, not fucking consider me, and eventually i will just stop letting it affect me.

because i swear to god i wish i could change them, but i think i'm only capable of changing myself

baked today. baked so much today. the coffee chocolate chip turned out to be just chocolate chip. the banana nut didn't rise enough cause i had to overcompensate the flour when i underestimated how wet mashed bananas could be.

but the blueberry turned out good, and the apple cinnamon has always been stable.

poop. maybe i'm just tired from the whole day's baking and standing on my feet.