So, just an update of what's been going on. I am so tired guys so I'll try to be brief. I met a guy just over a month ago and we've been dating...yes I remember my rule about not dating but I scrapped it after Adam...who by the way has broken up wih Erica now anyway...knew it wouldn't last but I didn't think it would have ended that fast. The stupid thing is I hope he's O.K. I don't hate him. I wasn't the right person for him and I can't hate him for that. It's just the way certain things were handled...I needed space and he's been really good and he's given me that and now I need to get back in touch with him...I still have a couple of things of his and he has one of my Nightworld books so...I really should get in touch with him.

So yeah started seeing Stuart who's actually a really guy...he's funny, sweet and he understands a lot about me even though we don't really have that much in common. We're both not interested in having a serious relationship but have fun together and we can talk for hours. I went to his on Friday and we spent some at the park before going to his for lunch...we were supposed to watch The Grudge 2 but...we ended up making love instead. It was amazing, I really wish I hadn't needed to go home that night.

So the problem is this - I'm scared he'll screw me over..that he'll hurt me and this time I won't recover.