Dear Ana D,
I took a personality disorder profile in class today. When we discussed them, I learned which traits corresponded to which personality disorders. And discovered that I qualify for none.
And I was glad.
I left the building after class, and considered the fact that I feel less like I want to be sick, and more like I'm actually competent. I've talked to James some, but I feel less desperate about it. I look forward to talking to him, and I check my email a lot, but I feel less obsessive. Part of it is, I think, that I believe he actually wants to talk to me to, and not that I have to somehow win him over with my wit, charm, and mind games. I also feel less worried about my food. I think I eat fairly healthy, and that I go to the gym enough. Sometimes, I can skip the gym and do something else productive.
Today might just be a good day, in general. But I want to put these thoughts here so that when I do get down on myself, I can remember that it isn't always bad. Do I still have body image issues? Yes. But do I think I need to escape life by virtue of some mental (or physical) illness? No. Some days are worse than others. But a combination of productivity and sunshine is certainly helping.