i woke about 4 and came out to stack animals and play jungle gin against the computer.

the full moon hung low in the sky, perfect for viewing out of the picture window. it's a big big world and all of this is small potatoes. somehow it made me realize that i was being a big assed baby. and perhaps i was being over-dramatic. my boy called twice last night alone. he was worried even though i didn't get dramatic with him

after posting yesterday, and crying and crying... i moved outside to complete a project on the side of the house by the garbage cans. the little old lady that lives on that side has long suffered this bed that i just never got around to. i got weed block pegged in and some mexican pebbles that just make it look so much nicer. I cut out holes so the hostas could poke through.... and felt good to complete something. ed, my old friend around the block came over to look at my work, and advised (after I'd completed and cleaned up) that i should have doubled the weed block paper. he said this as i told him i'd never have to weed there again....  so... i guess i will have to weed again, but not this year.

i walked the dogs on leash twice yesterday afternoon.  elliott went nuts over the rottie around the corner, and i gave him no leash and we walked directly home.   after a time we tried again.  i gave him about two feet and he did great.  he didn't react to a runner or a kid on a scooter.  he looked up at me and i looked right at him and let him know to not dare, i wasn't messing around.  i didn't yell.  i yanked the leash, and he looked at me rather then the scooter kid.  baby steps. 

today my goal is to do the same thing without being sad or mad.  it's just our new life.  people have it worse.  daisey is quite confused, but she will get the same treatment.  she doesn't care about other dogs or people.  she never barks or goes apeshit like her brother,  her goal is to pull and decide where we go.  i got news for the chick, i decide.   new sheriff in town and all that.

we need to get rolling.  it's good friday and everyone is off today.  the park should packed....  and that means that we get lots of chances to learn all the new rules.... right?  

no crying today....  just, no crying....