Dunno whats happened, but im so socially dead now its not funny.

My fraternity lost a bunch of people to graduation, one really good friend of mine especially. One girl that I was attracted to and I think she felt the same way towards me.

My old bar job the people don't socialize with me anymore. Its not from lack of calling or trying to hook up on my part. Just stopped being available.

Lost an old lifetime friend, he moved to AZ and hes pretty much gone now as well.

I still call my friends occasionally, but as far as stuff to do in person im a hurting unit.

I could try to work at the old volunteer place again, but its stuck in a dungeon. I hate being there.

Im not working right now, looking for work (like a lot of people). I could go back to my old bouncing job I guess. But the hours are murder. I probably should simply cause I can't find work.

I'm getting terribly lonely. Which is probably why im feeling more vulnerable and uncomfortable again.

Why is it I only notice when girls that im interested in/them in me are gone and out of my life? Why can't I act on the moments and try to get closer to them before time might expire? I don't understand my brain sometimes.

Life is truly sucking right now. In person anyway.