well i got with him. a little more then just getting with him. anyways it was so much fun. but now im not really sure how i feel about it. i did it knowing that he didnt really like me like that. it was just because i was there and he was drunk and horny. i dont want people to lose respect for me. im not the kind of girl who does that. and fuck im so scared that he will tell everyone at work. i really dont want any of them to know. fuck fuck fuck. what the hell have i done? the sad thing is, i actually like him but it wouldnt matter if he liked me or not cause he's leaving on wednesday. ive noticed a pattern in my relationships, they go a bit like this. carli meets a guy and they become really good friends. they become more then friends. he leaves. oh how my life stinks, im going shopping.