Ok, I'm back from Oregon.  I am so cranky for like no reason, well I have a reason bu that will be explained in a later sentence.  school has been closed, but that has only been a mixed blessing.  Cool, because I didn't finish everything that I needed to do over winter break.  Bad because I'm stuck in isolation again. errg.  Let see, what issues are there.  A whole hell of a lot of them.

Firstly I have no boyfriend. ANd all your problems just diappear when you have a boyfriend.  Second, I've lost myself, sort of.  When I go to a different place or situation with people I don't know, I watch and listen and create a new personality of myself so that I could be accepted.  That just seems to be my undoing.  Stress of the century.  I have at least ten personalities to keep track of.  I have to be someone different to my best friend, than I am with my regular friends in washington.  aNd then soon I will be moving again, wich might mean a new personality to arise.  Which then makes it hard to remember who I really am.  But I'll do my best to handle that.  Oh, and I needed to talk about this once.  And since from that stress, I lashed out at someone for not e-mailing me.  I feel so bad, but the internet is such an easy place to be mean.  The only place I could ever be mean to someone.  but if I have been mean to anyone that reads this, I apologize.  I really shouldn't be mean to anyone, wether or not that they can see me.  Next on the list.  I have a really good friend, who is having problems with depression, for I think the first time.  So I've been having to talk him through that.  And I feel so bad for him.  I wish I could do more than jst e-mail him, but he live directly on the other coast.  Not much I can do there.  I need to just write something, I've said that before, but...  Well I guess that is about it.  yummy...i hope...