sick again, aren't I always? i wanna find out what's up with me cause it affects every aspect of my life...sleep, school, social, dance, everything, it sucks massly... oh well though.... i'd rather stay home then go to school any day..... I'm listening to Josh Groban Broken Vow at the moment wow!! What a great song, and he sings it so remarkably well.... i can't get over it, the concert it is 4 days!! i think that i could die right now just thinking about it.... dahhhk!!
Does it even matter to anyone that i'm so sad? no one seems to notice, they just expect little dara to always be happy and go lucky like always, always giving the advice, never in need of it, well i'm in need now, but i dont know who to go to.... cause the one person that i could go to is the one person that is causing all this confusion.... i guess there are a lot of ppl i could go to, i'm so blessed to have them all in my life, but i'm just such a private person that it takes a lot to get me to open up.....
so i've figured out what i want to do with my life, i want to become a singer/performer.... it's gonna be hard, seeing as everyone in my family sings and is musically gifted many better than i, and i often get overshadowed by my sister who is majoring in vocal performance... but the way i look at it, if i really want to do this, then i certainly can. I even know what genre i would like to sing.... classic/pop..... That way i don't have to get swept away with all the worldly things that go on in the hip-hop and full on pop world.... i've always wanted to be a professional singer, but i never really acted... if i decide not to be a classical singer, then i would really enjoy being an LDS singer, spreading my testimony the best way i know how, through song, and i really want to help people the way so many singers have helped me..... wow!! i just gotta get my voice back so i can actually sing..... that would be nice!! on to www.entertainers-secret.com to make my voice come back!! lol
Listening to Josh relaxes me and makes me feel as if NOTHING is wrong in the world, especially "remember when it rained" which is one right now...... (he even plays the piano the entire time.... he's such an idol to me..)
Remember when it rained... Written By Josh groban
Wash away the thoughts inside
that's all im gonna go lay down and watch a movie and try to fall asleep......